Today is the two year anniversary of my fathers death. Its crazy that its the day after my husband and I's wedding anniversary. I have a day of happiness and a day of sadness. I can tell you that I have come along way since that dreadful day two years ago. When I recieved the news that morning I didn't think my heart could handle it. I have never felt that emotion in my life.Its as if life as you know it has changed in an instant. But, somehow you keep going and living and learning.
My father was a diabetic and had been one my whole life. He was diagnosed one year before I was born. So, for thirty-two years he dealt with the side affects of his illness. I will have to say that in all my years I never heard my father complain one time. He lived his life everyday as if it was his last. He made every encounter with anyone something special and memorable. I believe he knew his life wouldn't be long and there were many times when he had a diabetic reaction and he should of died. He came close to death many times and I think he was grateful for every moment he had. Im grateful that my father did not suffer in ways that many diabetics do. He was just living life and the day before he died he had visited the Keeper of the Plains down by the river, and then later that night in his sleep he passed away. Everytime I pass by the Keeper of the Plains I think of my father and picture him sitting there and taking in the sites and having a beautiful moment before he closed his eyes forever. I miss him all the time and will do so for as long as I live and will be grateful that such a wonderful man was my father. Today is a day of remembrance for a man that lived a life well lived and that made everyone around him feel that they mattered and that they were loved unconditionally. Thank you Dad for loving me and teaching me and coaching me through life. I will carry these tools with me as I continue my journey through life.
Theirs a saying about buddhist monks. It is said that before they go to bed at night that they turn there tea cup upside down on the saucer, because there is know gaurantee that they will wake in the morning. What I say to this is don't ever pass up the opportunity to say something to someone because you might not get the chance. Don't take life for granted and never assume you will get another chance because in a flash it could be gone and you never want to live with regrets or woulda shoulda couldas. Just something to think about when your in the hustle and bustle of life. I hope this finds you well and I hope your journey is a peaceful one-
Namaste
